I was reading in my Beth Moore study today about... idols. And it really hit home. I have been idolizing exercise now, for many years. It has truly been an idol of my heart, off and on, for the better part of 15 or so years. Probably since I was about 20. (Now you can all guess my age:))
And today that idol brought me to tears. Just typing that it has been that long brings me to tears. I truly didn't realize how long it has been ruling me. But it's not really the idol of exercise. It's the idol of feeling empowered. Like I am strong. I'm not saying it's wrong to exercise, or to be strong or healthy, or to even want to look good. It's when that becomes more important to me than how much I exercise my spiritual muscles, when it becomes more important to me than how beautiful my inner heart is.
I'll continue to exercise, but I've decided to get off facebook. At least for awhile. The problem with facebook is that almost all I talk to people about on it is my physical exercise. Sure I'll post a verse now and then, but my talk of exercise dominates. Today I even posted that I would not be exercising due to the needs of other things coming first, to which someone posted, "Make sure you make time for exercise."
It is obviously the predominate focus on my "friend's" minds. And I don't want that to influence me anymore. I want to make sure I spend at least as much time in my Father's care of my heart as I do taking care of His outward temple.
Yes the body is important, but the heart is most valuable. After all, "When you seek Me with all your heart then you will find Me."
It's time I made more time for finding Him. Which means less time for gratifying my earthly desire to be beautiful.
After all, I want to be gorgeous for my King. That is much more important than being beautiful to my fellow created beings!
